20th January 1998

Well, you know how my classmates tease me to that Corrine guy. It really bites, you know? Well today, I did something I shouldn't have done.

Reverse psychology.

At a volleyball game, I put my hand on Erika's shoulder and she said, "Don't do that to me, do that to Corrine." I remember a time when Martin was teasing me to Casey, I said that I enjoyed it. He stopped right away. So I did it to Erika. I said, "I was just practising." I didn't mean it but she told Margie. The two of them rolled around in laughter.

Another time, at the classroom, Corrine's best friend, Sharlene said, "Lauren, stop staring at Corrine, she'll melt coz you stare at her too much." Reverse psychology again. I said, "She already melted!" Sharlene doubled in laughter and she did the worse thing in the world. She told Corrine, "Hey Corrine! Are you melted yet? Lauren says you are!" How humiliating.

I heard her talking about it to her friends.

Reverse psychology. Never do it unless neccesary. It's very very dangerous.

I hate the popular girls at our school. All they ever talk is who the crushes of the gays at school are. Bo-ring.

I don't understand love. What's love anyway?? What's this crush business? It tears me up just thinking about love. I can't stand thinking about it! I don't get these love songs either. In love songs, do they talk about falling in love with some guy? Who cares if you're in love with this guy and that? Why tell the world in a love song, instead of just saying, "I love ______"??

Duh. Maybe I shouldn't have a boyfriend when I grow up. I'll make a lousy girlfriend, mainly, because I don't understand what love is, and why it's there!

How I hate growing up.