date: july 30, 1999
time: 9:53 pm
title: for unlawful carnal knowledge (translated: miko is a dweeb)
feeling: depressed
ra file of the day: metallica my friend of misery
you're listening to:real audio or my radio
quote for the day: "FUCK YOU!" -me
the dumbest, most stupid, idiotic, cheapest thing that i have ever done in my entire life was when miko and i became an item, about a month before. it was more out of fun. now, it occurs to me that it had been a long time since my head had been examined--that was the day i turned stupid. i tell you--fourteen year old guys are rude, mean, freaks, and totally unreliable.
now, i would have accepted it with dignity and grace if miko had told me off nicely. i'd probably even laugh about it. but let's face it, fourteen-year old guys are not known to be "nice". even the holy ones like martin act like they fucking own the world, and therefore, they have the right to condemn the people who aren't like them. anyway, miko was never known for diplomacy. quite the opposite, actually. he's literally known around the world, for his being--oh, how do you put this lightly--a shithead. yes, a great big shithead, an asshole, and i hope he spends the rest of his life grounded/in detention.
his complaint? umm, something about me ignoring him because i'm always studying and crap, and then he said he turned down two girls who asked him out because of me. oh, so it's my fault now that he's bored? he knew he'd be bored in the first place (or so he says) but why'd he say yes anyway? oh, and he mentioned something about my posture. well to be honest, i'd rather have terrible posture than buck teeth. he should look at his fucking self before he looks at others--but then again, if he stayed in front of the mirror for too long, he might end up marrying himself because he's so self-centered.
i don't care if he wants to fuck with all the whores he wants in the world. i don't care either if he decides to chop me up with a knife and leave me hanging on the tree in the front lawn with my guts showing outside. drew barrymore looked really lovely in that scene. remakes, anyone?
oh, and you. yes, yes, you. well, laugh all you want--enjoy my misery.
disclaimer: this is the first time i am using this fucking language but i think i've got my fucking share of the word "fuck" for the fucking week--it's about fucking time i said something fucking. fuck you to all who said "fuck you" to me.
i fucking warned you didn't i ---so don't bitch me about it?
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