To my friend (you-know-who-you-are), most of the time, my heart rules over my head . It doesn't mean I am a weak person. I just follow my gut feeling on things and most often than not, I did make the right choices. I know you will find what's right for you. Anyway...

Today wasn't so bad. (I hope your day was better too). Nothing happened today that would indicate that the week that lay ahead was going to be real sucky. A lot of my friends noticed my new hair. They were like, "New look!" and asked me why in the world I had my hair cut. I couldn't say the real reason (that I wanted to look like an anime) because I would've sounded silly, so I said the reason why I had it cut was because I felt hot. I'm not sure if they liked it or not. They said my face changed too; I suppose it's because of my unusually short bangs. I sure hope it grows out soon.

There's a bright side to all this: at least with my bangs short, I can already wear my (fake) eyebrow ring. Not that I'd stoop to anything that scary just to be "cool", but I think I look cute with that ring.

My stupid little brother must've done something to my mailbox. All my e-mails are gone and so are the entries in my address book. Those were kinda important cause they contained the e-mail addresses of my friends in school. Honestly, I don't think my mom should let an inexperienced little brat tinker with the computer just like that. I mean, he could do real considerable damage. So if you've e-mailed me recently and I didn't reply, it's probably because I didn't see it because of him.

I really wanna buy batteries and film for my camera. I think I've got enough money for film, but I'm kinda forgetting about the idea. I haven't bought Angelica's and Kristel's presents yet, cause I still have to buy them at the mall. Speaking of the mall, I don't have any gimmicks planned on Saturday, which is kinda depressing. Of all the times I had to be gimmick-less, it had to be this Saturday. It would've been tons of fun since it's the first Saturday of Christmas break. Oh well, it's probably a blessing in disguise I'm not going out on Friday; I'm going to be out clean after buying my last-minute presents. But on the first Saturday of summer break, I'm going to make sure I'm going out.

Don't laugh, but I really like Mi Chico Latino by Geri. I could listen to it twenty times a day and I wouldn't get bored. When I grow up, I wanna live near a beach.

I was talking to the "popular" girls in school this morning when we were planning on the theme for the class Christmas party. We chose a seventies theme--we'd have disco lights and everyone should wear something retro, like bootleg or elephant pants. But one of us said that we had to forget about wearing elephant pants because the juniors were already pissed at us. According to the juniors, they said we were being copycats because we wear dark denim elephant jeans and black like them. That is so stupid. Sure, we got the idea of wearing elephant jeans from them but just because they were the first ones in school to wear them, it doesn't mean that the others can't too. It's not as if they designed it or anything, so therefore anyone can wear it. I swear, the juniors in my school are louder and wilder than the seniors. I'm so thankful I'm leaving my school next year; I'd hate to see what happens when the juniors become seniors.

I've got mixed feelings about not being in the school play. (The second audition was cancelled). I feel a little bummed because I can't help thinking about how much fun I'm missing, but at the same time I'm relieved because rehearsals would really take up a lot of my time. But still, whenever my friends talk about the stuff that happen during rehearsals, I can't help but feel a twinge of envy. Oh well, Denilou and Angelica were supposed to be in the play but they missed a major rehearsal so they were kicked out. At least I'm not alone.

Guess what, Derek's got an online journal! Finally. I swear, he writes a tad better than me. He makes really cool graphics too; I used to know how a long time ago, but his are better than mine. Anyway, I'm so glad he's finally convinced to put an online journal up. Click here to go to it. It's got a very unique design and it's very....nationalistic.

I gotta go now. Good night. Don't forget to e-mail me at lauryn@diaryland.com. It's a forwarding email address.