I'm listening to music from the Final Fantasy VIII (FF8) soundtrack. I can't help it. I love FF8. No, correct that, I loooooove FF8. Is that good or bad? I'm desperately trying to find the MP3 of Waltz for the Moon, the song Squall and Rinoa were dancing to when they first met, and the only webpage I know that has it doesn't work. I can't even find a MIDI file. Aiiiiieeee! Okay, what to do, what to do, what to do.....

I bet a lot of you are thinking, "Why the hell is this girl so obsessed with some stupid game and some stupid characters that don't even exist? What's so great about it anyway?" My "obsession" with FF8 is like someone's obsession with Dawson's Creek except mine is much better. See, all you do with Dawson's Creek is sit on your ass and watch people lose it. In FF8, you're the star. You get to control the character. And best of all, no one's going to criticize you on the way you act, the way you talk, etc. All you do is sit on your ass and punch a few keys. Plus, the music is cool, the story is cool and the characters are da bomb. And most of all, it distracts me from my problems in life , just another past time like listening to music and writing . Life is already serious as it is and this is a fun thing to do .

Sometimes, I need to distract myself from schoolwork and friends. I know it may seem shallow to some of you but I can't be too deep and serious, analyzing my life or else I'll never see the light of day. But we all have our way of coping our problems so this is just one way. You have your own. . You won't understand what I'm talking about till you've actually experienced it. I know because I was like, "Stephen's such a moron for being obsessed with this crazy game." But I started acting the way he did ever since I started playing FF8 so now I know.

My sister got her glasses today. Now everyone in the family wears glasses except for Le Brat Boy. I can't believe that he of all people escaped the nerdie treatment. Luckily, she isn't too upset about it; otherwise she'll be whining about it from today until the day she turns 69. Speaking of 69, the class decided that everyone have Marvin the Martian tees made for the Intramurals with numbers at the back. Like basketball jerseys, except our last names won't be on it. I ordered small size so it would fit me like a baby tee, and a huge 69 on the back of course. ^_^ Dum dee dum, just wanted to let you know.

I really hate it when you click a link and the only thing you see is a big "under construction" sign. That is so stupid. Why do they put it up in the first place if it's still under construction?

Hey vitch. It's too bad my system didn't work for you. I did not put those binder-whateveries to make myself popular or to impress the "cool" kids. That was not my intention. I put them cause I thought they were cute. That's all. And I was already cool before they noticed the FF8 stuff so go mind your own business. Actually, FF8 stuff won't get me anywhere up the social ladder because no one in my school even knows what it is. It's because of me that some people in school knows that FF8 actually exists.

Poor Chris W! I totally sympathize with him. Love suuuccckkksss. Especially over the Internet! But I think it's weird how a person can get over an ex in the time span of one day. I bet it would take me ages. But I can't really say, I've never went out with anyone. Except for Peter, but I guess that's a different story.

Peter and I went out for a month. We did it just for fun, I guess. I can even relate my so-called relationship with him to FF8: Rinoa had this boyfriend named Seifer before Squall, and Peter reminds me of him alot. Airheaded, bossy, cussy, tough and romantic (Peter isn't here so I can trash him all I want, hehe). Too bad you can't change anyone else's name in the game; I'd have changed Seifer's name to Peter. Why is my life related to FF8? I'm beginning to act like Stephen! Help! But I bet if Peter only gave me the chance , I bet I could've loved him. He's loving. And I'm a very loving person. Check out my crush list for proof, the one that's half a mile long. He wanted to be with me for as long as I wanted to but I just wasn't able to give him that kind of love because I wasn't ready ( for some personal reasons which I don't want to tell you). So, Peter broke up with me for the same reason Chris broke up with Jessie; cause love over the 'Net is frustrating . And he was so cute too....*sigh*

Anyway, lesson of the story is, love but don't take it too seriously. Especially not over the 'Net. Peter and I didn't take it seriously and we're still talking, which is totally cool. Most of all, we're still best of friends. Something more permanent and lasting.

I have to go. One of these days, I'll get around to making my FF8 webpage so you'll know what I'm talking about.