It sure was a shock for me to get through all my classes today. I guess I got kinda used to classes being interrupted because of rehearsals and stuff. Oh well, it's back to reality for all of us now. At least the teachers are being nice enough to remind us that we've got one more month left until they get rid of us for the summer. What a cheery thought. No really, it is.

After school, I went to Glorietta with my mom to buy Stephen's present, which is one of those classic brown teddy bears. It's so cute! When I get around to it, I'll probably buy something like it. I also bought a couple of scrunchies for myself. My hair can be very annoying, especially with my head bent over my desk and my sister had lost the last of my scrunchies some months ago. She never does return the stuff she "borrows". At least she's too big to fit in my clothes; I'd get really pissed if she lost/damaged any of them.

Glyka was asking me advice on how to stop thinking about a crush and I told her this. My advice to her was to distract herself as much as possible. To try having less moments alone with herself because that's the time she tends to brood over him. God, what a phony I am. I'm suffering the same problem myself, but I can't even follow the same damn advice I give. See, I think I'm developing a crush on someone. Not an infatuation type of crush like my crush on CK but a hardcore, I-think-I'm-almost-in-love kind of crush. It had only happened to me once and I swear, it was hell. But it gets worse. I don't want to have a crush on this guy! I mean, he's cute and all but I can't imagine myself having feelings for him! And it's already getting to the point where I'm starting to act real psycho. Get this. Last night, I was listening to Mirrorball. And when track 6 came on, I was imagining him and me slow dancing to that song in my demented little mind. I had a hard time falling asleep last night cause I kept thinking how damn romantic and complicated it would be if he and I went out with each other. It was sick. I've tried distracting myself, having less moments alone with myself, just what I told Glyka. But it doesn't damn work! My condition worsened when I got to school. Whenever I found myself getting bored, I start thinking of him again. I try to listen to the damn teacher in order to forget about him (who knows, I might learn something) but then I only get bored if a teacher I hate is teaching. The more I listen to her, the more I hate her. The only other possible distractions I know work only for a very short while. Seeing CK distracts me a lot but once he's gone, I start thinking of the Unwanted Crush again. Talking to my friends also work but once our conversation is over, guess where my mind wanders? It's sad. Really sad. Damn this "month of love"! I hate it.

A cheerful thought: I finished my Steno homework by myself, without any help, for the first time. See, I usually copy my Steno homework from my other classmates (a lazy habit) but I decided that since I'm supposed to get good grades (just in case I don't get enough money for that cellphone), I might as well start now. I'm pretty lousy at Steno but I was surprised to find that I didn't have such a hard time answer the homework tonight. Besides, I am feeling patient enough to do it. It, you know, helped distract me a lot.

Please pray that I don't think of him tonight.