Yesterday was the worst day of the week. See, while I was going home from school, I was thinking, "I guess I could consider today the worst day of the week if Alex shows up at Math tutor tonight." Despite what Stephen had told me on the phone Sunday night, I didn't believe that problems between Alex and I were "solved". I still think she is an immature, whining bitch. Anyway, after thinking that thought, I had a very strong feeling that she would show up tonight and I would get pissed.

I swear to God I will never use my psychic powers for self-mutilation again.

No one was in the room when I went for math tutor and I was relieved. I was solving my goddamn geometry problems in peace when the door burst open and Stephen came in. I was like, "Oh well, at least she's not here." I continue solving math problems and then Stephen says somthing about Yam lending me a book called Otheo-something. I go, "It's Ophelia Speaks, moron." And he's like, "Whatever. You two are so intellectual." I say, "So what? Being an intellectual and reading books are good." He goes, "Reading books is boring. Being an intellectual is boring. I'd rather read comics." That pissed me off because how could he say reading books and being an "intellectual" are boring when I've never seen him glance through a single decent book?

Then I go, "No one gets any moral values from reading comics." (I got that statement from my Values Ed. teacher.) Then he says, "I look at the art, moron." Then I go, "Well that's boring. You learn nothing from it." Then we have this really huge, noisy debate on which was better, being an intellectual or being an artist. He kept saying that being an intellectual was sucky which really pissed me off. First of all, he's never tried being one. I've tried drawing and that sucked. Second of all, you've got to be a genuine moron if you can't even read a single good book cause reading a book doesn't take any skill. Art does. And the argument goes on and I thought it would go on forever until the door flew open. Guess who waltzed in.

It killed me when I saw her. I couldn't believe that my horrible premonition came true. This truly was a sucky day. But that's not the worst. Not only did she absolutely, totally ignore me but she sat in another table and Stephen joined her and both of them completely, totally ignored me. Not only were they ignoring me but they were planning a gimmick on Friday and guess who were going? Stephen, Alex and Chris. Not a word about me. And that absolutely sucked. So I hurried up and finished my goddamn geometry and handed them to my tutor to be checked. After she checked it, I was like, "Am I done?" When she nodded yes, I was like, "Okay, miss, see ya!" And I made a run for the door and walked home, even though I was twenty minutes early. I can't stand being ignored.

So during the twenty-minute walk home, I was really furious and I've been thinking, maybe I should totally ignore them. Stephen, Alex and Chris. Well, maybe except Chris because he hadn't done anything wrong to me. Anyway, I was thinking that I should quit the group and join the list of people who used to be their friend. So what if leaving the group means staying home alone, bored in the summer? It's better than being ignored. Now I know why no one's been friends with the two of them for long. Cause they're assholes who are totally devoted to each other, and each other only. Sure, Chris is still with them but they're treating him like shit. I swear to God, they are the most immature sixteen-year olds I have ever met. And that's speaking for myself.

I feel like I can totally relate to No Doubt's new song, Ex-Girlfriend, except that I haven't been an ex-girlfriend. Just an ex-friend but it sorta means the same thing. God, what am I gonna do by myself this summer?

Enough about yesterday. Today was a tad better. Annie, Angela and I are thinking of moving schools for sophomore year. I bet I wouldn't be allowed cause I'm moving on my junior year anyway. Not to Stephen's school cause I might punch him if I see him in the hall. Probably somewhere else.

My horoscope for today said that there would be many emotional people around me today and that I should be tactful because I might end up hurting them. And you know what, horoscopes are for real. See, Dyancel and Gayle were having a total cry session today. During recess, the two of them stayed at a dark corner of the third floor hallway and were crying their eyes out. Maan rolled her eyes when we passed them and said, "Come on Lauryn, let's get away from these emotional freakazoids." Then during lunch, Dyancel and Rhea were having a fight and Dyancel was crying. I wanted to watch but I decided not to since I've been real insulting and kept saying "Whatever" all throughout the fight. I asked Nikki what was going Geezus, I wish Dyancel would grow up and stop crying for every person who finds her annoying. You can't please everybody.

Today is Denilou's birthday and I totally didn't know! I only knew when she paid for everyone's snack. I sent her an online greeting card anyways so she'll know I didn't totally forget. She got a cellphone for her birthday, which is totally cool.

Isn't it awesome that Santana is still around? My mom was thirteen and a freshman when he and the band were the in-thing then and now I am listening to their music. I wonder if they would still be around when I have a 13 year old daughter.