Jeff is starting school tomorrow! Tonight, actually. Or this morning. Whatever. Anyway, he's going to be a freshman, which is weird. Cause I'm about two years younger than he is but I started freshman year first before him. I'm still smarter. Ha ha. Ooh, and the best part is, I'm going to be a senior before him! I'm graduating high school at 16--he, eighteen! Ha ha! I'm like, a real genius! Bow down before me! Etc!

Today, I found out that Mako found out that I like him. See, he's been bugging our common friend, Dyancel, about who my crush was two weeks ago. And instead of saying that it was him, she just mentioned several (very obvious) hints. Dyancel felt guilty about it, I guess, so she told everything this morning when I arrived at school. No wonder he won't speak to me anymore! I felt a bit mad at her at first but I decided that it wasn't worth ruining our friendship over. Besides, she apologized. It obviously meant that Mako isn't the one for me--what kind of idiot acts mad when he finds out I like him? He should feel honored, in fact! Oh well, search on, search on. It will take a while (and a lot of tears) to forget about him but I will.

Nikki's phone has been busy for over an hour. After three tries, I finally gave up (I'm very impatient). Finally, she called me up, and the reason why the phone was busy was because Marvin (her--I think--soon-to-be boyfriend) called her up. He's going with us to the mall on Saturday and he's bringing a friend with him. I can't wait, I hope his friend is cute.

I was thumbing through a friend's YM at school today and my god, there was this twelve year-old who was freaking out because she hasn't been kissed yet. And the worst thing was, the guy who gave her advice gave her the lousiest advice of all: go for it. As in, go around town and kiss every cute guy you meet. Now I may sound a tad bit conservative (heck, I am conservative when it comes to stuff like that), but she is way too young (and way too delusional) to worry about crap like that. I haven't been kissed yet, but I'm not breaking out in purple pimples or anything. I can't stand girls who are paranoid because they haven't been kissed/don't have a boyfriend while my friends over here are paranoid because they haven't done their Social Studies homework? I don't get along with girls who are like that at all.

Speaking of advice, KCI has an advice site which is more than 2 years in the making . I can hardly update it with the tons of questions coming in. But here's Derek's advice to the nutty 13 year-old who had sex with her equally nutty boyfriend. Her question was "I've known my boyfrind for 6 whole years and we just recently start going out and he said he wanted to have sex with me. I did'nt want to but I did and it hurt so bad and I told him to stop but he would not listen and then I start crying and he stopped and I put my clothes and left his house and I stopped talking to him but he calls me and ask me for another chance should I give him another chance?"

First off, never do anything you don't want to do, especially sex. If you don't want to have sex, then don't, and if they stop seeing you because of it, then you know they never were truely attracted to you in the first place. But, as many sexual therapists have said, never let a bad sexual experience control your life or your relationship. Also, sex does weird things to a person's mind, both before, during, and after the act, and people that are normally timid become forcefull when in the heat of passion. I will not tell you whether I think you should give the guy a chance or not, for that is up to you. If you do decide to give him another chance, don't start up right where you left off, take things slowly, and if it eventually comes to the point where he asks for sex again, tell him exactly how you feel about it. If you decide not to give him another chance, be sure not to let this bad sexual experience ruin future relationships and eventually future experiences in sex. To wrap it allup, NEVER let anyone or anything control you, EVER. Good luck, and best wishes.

I wish I could give good advice as he. I'd probably say something along the lines of: "You shall burn in hell for your slutty behavior! How could you allow him to lay eyes upon the base of your purity? And to lie on his bed! Gosh, is there no end to your immoral behavior? If your life story was a movie I would give you an X-rating and ban you from all cinemas! Slut! Adultress! If I ever lay eyes on you, I would stone you to death!" I almost did, but I didn't want the poor girl to become nuttier than she is.

If you want Derek to advice you, here's his email address. I know he'll kill me but then I know he won't. I wish I had Derek's patience. I once had a friend whom I nearly threw out the window because she kept asking advice about love. I'd better watch it; one day, he might do the same. There are other things about Derek that I wish that were mine, but if they all were mine, then there would be nothing left to like about him. I would become patient and non-bitchy and he would probably hate me.