I just arrived from my tutor's house half an hour ago. I usually finish in an hour but tonight, Stephen was there and we were both laughing so hard we hardly got any work done. Our tutor is nice and would ride on but sometimes she would tell us to stop and start answering the problems. There would be one minute of silence then Stephen and I would suddenly start laughing, for no apparant reason at all.

A weird thing happened today. The first thing I said when I saw Nikki this morning was, " Mako is depressed today." I don't know what made me say that, it just came out from my mouth. She gave me the look that she usually gives me when she knows I don't really mean what I'm saying. Later on, I heard from Dyancel that he really was depressed because Monica busted him or something. Dyancel and I are okay now, by the way. To make up for it, she even did my typing exercises for me. Though I am a better typist than she is, I let her do it anyway. She might get offended if I told her I could do it myself, and besides, she owes me. Sometimes I do her typing excercises for her.

Anyway, I feel like I have myself to blame for Mako's depression, though I never did anything except wish that Monica would break his heart. When I first heard the news, I was happy and everything. I was like, "Whoo, he's all mine for the taking! ", and all that crap. But then soon, I realized my selfish intentions. It takes a lot to love someone and when that someone doesn't love you back, it really hurts. I felt really ashamed of myself after that because I know what heartbreak is like. I don't enjoy hurting the one I love or seeing the one I love getting hurt or depressed. And I certainly don't tolerate other people who are happy when I am depressed. I now feel like I am not worthy of him. Therefore I will forget about him.

My nutty cat, kylee just peed on my mom's bed and she is now absolutely furious because this is the second time this week. He goes to his cat box , (which looks like a microwave oven because it's white ) when he poops, all right, but I don't understand why he doesn't go there when he wants to pee. Strange world I live in.

I'm an hour late in meeting my classmate at IRC. So I gotta split. Goodnight ya'll.