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date: August 27, 1999 time: 9:01 pm title: Yet Another Syringe of Hormones Has Been Injected In Me feeling: inspired quote for the day: " In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals everything, and two minus one equals nothing." McLaughlin, Mignon The poem above is written by Mako, my crush next to CK. Unless you can read Filipino, you will not understand the poem. The poem is about someone who is really in love with someone but finds it hard to accept the fact that the person she is in love with loves someone else. No, Mako didn't give the poem to me out of the blue. Yesterday, I was feeling a bit depressed about CK when Mako came over and asked what was wrong. Not wanting to turn him off, I only said that the person I liked was hooked up with someone else and it was making me a little glum. To my total shock, instead of rolling his eyes at me (unlike some people out there), he said he understands the way I was feeling at the moment. And why shouldn't he; he was also suffering the same problem. It took me less than three guesses to figure out that it was either Monica or Kathy. Damn. Now I was even more depressed. And then he said, "Since we are both suffering from the same problem, I don't have anything to say to make you feel better. But would you like me to sing for you?" Now I was really surprised. No one has ever volunteered to sing for me before. Especially not any of the guys I liked. But he volunteered, so I said, "okay." And then he sang to me a (Filipino) love song. I was beside myself in happiness. And man, can he sing. For a minute there, I truly believed that he was in love with me (cause he was singing me a love song). Until the tiny voice in my subconscious said, "Hold it, girl. He's in love with Kathy, remember?" After that, he showed me some of his poetry and that was when I felt compelled to ask him to write me a poem about heartbreak. Because of the incident, I was able to write two very lengthy poems last night. Never in my life have I ever been so inspired! Mako gave me the poem first thing today. In the letter he wrote below the poem, he mentioned that he stayed up late brainstorming and writing it (later that day, one of my girl friends confided that when she called him up that night, he kept asking advice from her on what to write for my poem). That shocked me too. Not even my guy friends would stay up late just to write a poem for me, what more my crush. But he had and for the rest of the day, I was in seventh heaven. Actually, I still am. Mako is probably the best crush I'd ever had. See, he does really good at school and everything and so does (barf) Kathy so I figured out he'd probably notice me if he saw that I get good grades. So I made a promise to myself to do really, really, really good at school, for the sake of Mako! I think it's probably the nuttiest promise I'd ever made but I intend to fulfill it. Oh well, I'm probably giving ya'll a headache from talking about my so-called love life so okay, I'll shut up now. Despite my romantic achievements, I must admit that I feel sorta sad. Partly for myself but mostly for the Filipinos. Do you know that Nabisco made a cookie whose brand name is "Filipinos"? Sure, we call business suits "Amerikana" over here. But store windows don't display, "Amerikanas For Sale". No, we put "Business Suits For Sale". Nabisco really used the word "Filipinos" as the brand name, as in, "Filipinos For Sale". That's kind of insulting and I think that if they're going to use that term, the Philippines should be given a capital or something. I think that the word "Filipinos" is copyrighted or something. Our President said ''That's an insult to the Filipino people'' . Some stupid idiot told me (not very politely) to stop e-mailing her. So I wrote back and said "okay"--and sent at least a hundred copies of that e-mail. I hope she has tons of fun downloading all of 'em. Hi Dan . I'm wearing a pair of jeans by the Gap right now. Tomorrow's the big choir party! Whoo-hoo! Celina can't make it, dammit. But Cyril will be there. And so will tons of cute guys (hopefully). If Marina has the gall to show up I'm going to throw her ass out the window. Peter sent me this really funny MP3 some days ago. He thought I would find it totally gross, but I was actually laughing my rocker off listening to it. Many people think I'm a conservative freak but actually, I am the Queen of Green. My school friends know what I'm talking about. Anyway, tell me what you guys think of the MP3. Peter's Warning to me: make sure your folks aren't around when you listen to it. Nikki went to my house today and she stayed until six p.m. But at around seven-thirty, her mom called the house wondering where Nikki was. According to her, Nikki hadn't arrived home yet. My assumption is she probably went to the mall afterwards. Boy, is she gonna be in trouble. Oh yes,Mark, sweet surrender! <<< ~ main ~ sign ~ >>> |