I'm really worried about Alex. Stephen and I were talking about Lendel at math tutor awhile ago Miss Judy (our tutor) said that she noticed that ever since Alex met Lendel, they've been going to each other's houses every night. "They're probably going out with each other already," Michelle said with a knowing smile. And then Stephen was like, "Nah, she's probably jealous that Lauren and I are becoming close. I think that she's hanging out with Lendel to make me jealous or something. But if Lendel becomes Alex's new best friend, I don't mind cause I've got Lauren with me."

Freaky. Alex, jealous of me? Umm, okay, I admit that I get a sick pleasure from watching people turn green with envy with just the mere mention of my name. But none of my friends have ever been jealous of me. And it's really, really scary. And then Stephen proceeded on telling the story of what happened to him and Alex when he was in seventh grade. He met a guy at school and they became really close and then one night, Alex called the guy up and she was like, "Excuse me, but could you become my boyfriend?" And then the next day at school, the guy was freaking out at Stephen and their friendship went kaput.

Actually, one of my friends has been jealous of me, and I didn't like it. See, when I was new, the first person I met at school was Trina. But when I got to know Angelica, we seemed to have more vibes than me and Trina. So after I really got to know Angelica, I started hanging out with her most of the time but I'd be with Trina some of the time too. And then one day, both girls just exploded. Angelica said that Trina was being too possessive over me and then Trina was like, "Well, I met her first!" They were fighting over me, right in front of my eyes. I was helpless to do anything but stare at them, openmouthed.

How things ended: I'm still good friends with both girls, but Angelica and Trina haven't been talking ever since the fight. In fact, once, when I ran into Trina when I'm with Angelica, Trina was like, "Come to the mall with us, Lauren. It's more fun than hanging out with that loser." And then Angelica was like, "At least I'm not covered with a layer of cholesterol."

So anyway, I'm really scared that the same thing would happen to me and Alex. She's such a cool friend and I don't want her to start hating me or something because Stephen and I are becoming closer friends. I sure wouldn't want to become her enemy. That would be the worst thing I could become.

I have to admit, there are times when I feel jealous when I learn that a close friend of mine met someone new. But that would only be like, a small twinge of jealousy. I wouldn't make any life-threatening phone calls or anything like that in order to get attention (Asking a guy out is life-threatening. I should know, I've tried it once). I wouldn't even bash that person in my journal. I'd probably do....nothing. As long as that close friend of mine wouldn't neglect me, I'd just act normal. But Alex isn't the type to "act normal" when she feels like nothing is normal. She has a short fuse, which is why I'm afraid she'll blow up at me.

I could call Alex up now but it's kinda late. I'll just have to wait and see what tomorrow brings.