Hi, I just ate dinner and man, do I feel stuffed. I feel so fat and huge, and I'm supposed to wear a swimsuit tomorrow. Umm, I'm going to a family vacation tomorrow and we're gonna stay in a hotel with a beach resort. I thought it wouldn't be so great, until my mom mentioned that the hotel and beach resort we were going to was plush. Cool: sun, sand and cute guys. What more can an adolescent with raging hormones ask for? I'm bringing my camera.

On the none-too-happy side, I think my friendship with Alex is sorta in trouble. I called her like an hour ago and Stephen was at her place. She seemed to be in a hurry to end our conversation which was a bit unusual since when either of us call each other, we'd talk for a very long time. I hope she doesn't hate me. Well for two whole days, I will be out of her hair. If things between us are still the same after my wee vacation, then it's time to panic. Or I dunno, I think I'm being paranoid again. Ya think?

I really do think I'm having PMS right now. Normally, I'm not such a bundle of nerves. Okay, I admit that I can be a bit jumpy and paranoid at times. But I actually burst into tears in English class this morning. I wasn't exactly bawling all over the place, but I was sobbing so much that it didn't take long for everyone to know that, "Okay, Lauryn's losing it." It was freaky and embarassing. I have never done that in my life before, not with so many people around and especially not in public. Everyone was genuinely concerned; even the popular girls were asking if I was all right. I really appreciated the concern and everything but geesh. Why am I always in the spotlight for the wrong reasons at the wrong times?

Hi to the person whose nemesis is yours truly. Thank you very much for linking me. To be honest with you, I have no idea why everybody loves me so much. Would you believe Andrew (owner of diaryland) himself actually linked me (thanks for having good taste)? And I don't even know him at all! Hmm. Could it be because I am actually good at something? Like, at writing and web design? You were wondering why I am so cocky. Okay, I know you didn't say that in your journal but I have like, ESP, you know? I am sarcastic and bitchy in nature because of a) my role model, Jessica Zafra and b) because of the influence of my friends, particularly Casey (yeah, he's my inspiration. He's to blame :) j/k!) and Alex. But I don't really mean the wicked stuff I say in my journal. Fifty percent of it anyway.

Look, the trick about journal writing is making friends through your journal. I know you're thinking, "Look who's talking; half the population of the world hates her because of her journal." Yeah, I know but what I meant by that is, don't go bashing other people just because of the way they write. The reason why so many people are--ahem--jealous and mad at me is because I have my own style of writing. Or maybe they just don't have my sense of humor. But anyway, I don't actually make fun of a particular person in my journal. So that is why I think you should still visit my website. I may be a real Queen Bitch but I don't put others down. Not intentionally anyway.

Now if you'll excuse me, I have a swimsuit to try on.