Nikki and I aren't talking at all. I mean, not at all. I tried to say "hi" this morning to her but she totally ignored me. I really did feel like I was talking to a brick wall. And I really hate that feeling. That was really nice and thoughtful of her, you know, to suddenly dump me after meeting this girl whom she think is so cool but in reality is just a big fat loser. Gad. The sorta sucky thing is, Dyancel is acting like a peacemaker again and wants the two of us to talk so everything will be back to normal. Hah. She keeps telling Nikki, "Why don't you and Lauren talk anymore? She seems a bit lonely." Talk about embarassing, man! The worst part is, I don't know if Dyancel is doing that because she's really, truly, 100% worried about my friendship with Nikki (if we ever had one) or because she just wants me to stop hanging out with her by rekindling the fire of my "friendship" with Nikki. UGH! Now I really, really, really, really feel like I'm stuck in the bottom of the social ladder. Waaay in the bottom. How do I know? Well, when you get that feeling that you're somehow unwanted, you'll know. God, I miss my friends. They're all in I-J and I'm the only one in I-E. I hate being seperated from them! Life sucks.

I wouldn't exactly loose my sleep over her. I mean, since she's with Rhea and all her stupid friends now, she's already a certified Loser, right? I'm just so totally mad at the fact that she suddenly dumped me like that. I mean, I've been nice to her. I didn't let half the school know who her crush was. Thanks to her, my secret crushes on Mako and CK is practically known throughout the entire universe! The suckiest part is, one minute, I was her friend and the next...I'm nothing. And she didn't even let me know that she didn't want me anymore. Ouch.

Lesson of the story: dump the person before she/he dumps you. After dumping that person, start chilling with the Loser crowd. Only then can you find true happiness.

I have P.E. tomorrow. We're doing gymnastics. School sucks. I think I'll go to bed early tonight.