I was having a hard time falling asleep last night, so when I was listening to my favorite radio station, RX 93.1, I suddenly had a brilliant idea. See, there's this part of the night program when people give out love messages to someone they love on air. Without much hesitation, I decided that it was about time I declared my love for Mako to the world (actually, I already have, in my journal, but not many people in the Philippines know about it yet). So after making my firm decision, I grabbed my pen and composed this really cheesy little love poem:

Gross! And to think I was going to read it on air!

My plans for love declarations were foiled. For about the nth time that night, dad popped his head in my room and told me to go to bed, it was late (for goodness sakes, it was only 9:30). He looked real pissed. But I owe my sister one for saving my ass. Since I was talking to the DJ, she told him that I was going to go on air. So he went like, "Okay, I'll listen." I couldn't recite my love poem, not with him listening to the radio. He'll say, "Who's that Mako? Is he your boyfriend? Where did you meet him? Where does he live?" And so on and so forth until I would be driven completely insane. So I ended up wishing Alex a happy sixteenth birthday, and greeting some school friends. And that was that. Or so I thought.

When I got to school this morning, this popular girl pushed me aside and asked, "Lauryn. Did you call up RX last night?" I was totally shocked cause I didn't think my classmates listened to RX. "How did you know?" I asked, dumbfounded. "I knew it!" she cried victoriously. "I happened to be radio-station-surfing when I came across RX when you called and I thought, 'Hmm, this girl's voice sounds familiar. Like from someone at school.' And then when you gave out your greetings, I thought it would be you. Duh! But I wasn't very sure." Uhh. And then she and her friends were like, "Hey, next time you call RX, don't forget to greet us!"

The news was all over I-J too. Dina was like, "Hey Lauryn, did you call up RX last night? I heard you on the air!" And I was like, "Uhh..." cause I forgot to include her and Trina in my greetings. She and Trina didn't mind much, though. What a relief! I'm sooo glad I didn't say my love poem to Mako on the air. It would have been really embarassing if like, half the freshmen class heard it! I really owe my dad a lot for saving me from a lifetime of humiliation. But guess what, I'm calling again tonight! But I'm not going to mention Mako or whoever or whatsoever anymore. That would be too awful to bear.

It was also sweet of Mark to dedicate a Blink song for me at his favorite radio station. When someone does thoughtful things just like that , it touches me. I really need to get the Blink CD but I'm still broke. All I have are mp3 files of "Dammit" and "All the Small things". I think I'll dedicate the song ,"Go", by Mel C Northern Star to Mark.

Kristel invited me to go shopping with her on Sunday but I had to cancel for two reason. Three, actually. First, my neighborhood friends are coming over . We're doing a dance programme for Stephen's Neighborhood Christmas party and we're starting rehearsals on Sunday. Second, I promised I'd help my mom bake Christmas cookies . I'm doing it to earn money, see. That's the third reason--I'm broke. My mom says if I help her decorate the house for Christmas, maybe she'll pay me. I already started sticking gold ribbons on pink christmas balls for the formal living room. Ugh, there are so many rooms to decorate! I dunno, if all else fails, I'll probably make something instead. But I really suck at arts and crafts. I wonder how I'll do it.

Guess what? I finally convinced my mom to quit the choir! I'm so happy. And it's so perfect because on Saturday, we have all-day rehearsals. But since I'm not a member of the choir anymore, I'm going to spend the whole of Saturday sleeping. My sister would rather die than quit the choir for some reason but I don't care. I'm not joining anymore! I owe the choir for bringing me to places around the world (even meeting my online pals) but I can still travel around the world with or without the choir. I love singing but classical singing isn't me. Besides, I feel too old for children's choir and I would rather focus on my piano and guitar lessons.

I'm staying home tomorrow night. Stephen has a cheerleading competition this Saturday (for some reason, his school included guys) and he says he needs the whole of Friday to rest. I thought of visiting this chatroom my classmates go to but I'm running out of minutes. I'll probably stay up all night and re-read Sophie's World. I know it doesn't sound like a normal thing for me to do on a Friday night but it's been a long time since I've read anything, and tomorrow would be perfect.