I went to Alex's house today so I could give her birthday present to her: a silver yin-yang ring, a bunch of balloons that I bought in the mall after school today and a card. I looooove silver jewelry to death so in my honest opinion, all the people I give silver jewelry to should feel special. The reason why I gave her birthday present today was because I wouldn't have time to give her birthday present to her tomorrow. She and Stephen are having dinner out with her family, and I'm eating out with my family plus my grandparents. She says she's not going to school tomorrow; what a lucky girl. I wish my birthday fell on a school day so I could miss school too.

Guess what, I'm getting fat. It's not the paranoid kind of fat that I always think about myself but I really, seriously am gaining weight. Shit! I keep eating lots and forgetting to do my exercises, so that must be it. My mom noticed I've been stuffing myself during the late afternoon and when I told her that I don't eat lunch and breakfast she said she requires me to eat breakfast from now on. I hate eating breakfast. I hardly have time in the morning to fix myself because I want every single inch of me to be perfect so the more I'll be late if I stop to eat breakfast. And there is no way I am waking up early so I could fill myself with carbohydrates or whatever you call it first thing in the morning. Besides, eating breakfast only makes me feel fatter. So, no way.

I started reading Theo's Odyssey by Catherine Clement last night. If Sophie's World was about philosophy, Theo's Odyssey is to spirituality. It's really thick and it's going to keep me busy for awhile but I love it. I've only finished the first chapter and now I'm halfway down the second. I'll probably read it after taking my shower. Reading that book sorta makes me wish I'd given Alex something else instead of the silver yin-yang ring. Oh well, that doesn't matter now.

I've been hanging out more with my friends in I-J. Nikki and I still talk but we aren't as tight-knit as we were during the pre-Rhea days. And no offense, but I don't really like being with the smart, genius-type group. It makes me feel like I should go back to nursery school. I feel like I'm the dumbest among them. I mean, they're all in the honor roll, I'm in line with the average people in the class. Surely a normal person would feel out-of-place with them. And God, Dyancel is such a saint. As in after she accidentally says a cussword, she'll make the Sign of the Cross and say, "Lord, forgive me." It's a total eye-roller, man! There's this sorta popular girl, Glyka who wants to become friends with me because she thinks that the popular crowd is soooo superficial but she still hangs out with them sometimes. I hate the world for separating me from my friends.

Thank goodness he didn't get mad at me. I have to go.